Everything that follows are the actual conversations I had with the police and my would-be rapist. I have shortened it dramatically (it really took around 4 hours alltogether), I have simplified it for artistic and other reasons, I might not remember everything as it was exactly and it is not the actual wording. For a start their English on these transcrips is much better.

-It's because you are so beautiful, you know

-So- What happened?
- This guy tried to rape me.
I had sex with his cousin and when I came back from the bathroom, this other guy was lying on my bed and then tried to force me to have sex with him.
So you had had sex?
Yes, with the cousin.
Did you want to have sex with him?
Yes, but that's not what I am talking about.
So you had sex?
Yes
Are you in love with him?
No
You wanted the sex?
Yes
So.- what is the problem?
The other guy. I am talking about the other guy. I didn't want to have sex with him. Just because I have sex with one guy, doesn't mean I want to have sex with anyone. I tried to push him out of the room. He refused. He threatened me with the police. He grabbed my wrists. He tried to force me. I was crying and pleading and he wouldn't let go. The only thing that made him stop was my friends coming back.
So nothing happened?
Well, he didn' actually managed to rape me. He fled. But he tried to. He didn't stop out of his own free will.
Yes, but really nothing happened. So it's not a bad crime. He didn't fuck you, did he? That would have been a bad crime. If had fucked you- If he would have pushed you on the bed and fucked you- that would be serious. This is not serious. There are not even marks on your wrists.
Stop looking at me like you want to fuck me. I am in a room with 3 guys. A small room. And stop looking at me like you want to fuck me so hard.
But he tried. He tried to. He attempted to rape me. He did not stop voluntary. He fled only because my friends came back. So yes, something happened.
Well, I don't know. What are we supposed to do?
I don't know. What you do in those cases. You must have a law. Like, go and arrest him for a start.
Oh, we don't have time. Maybe tomorrow. Just stay here and wait.
I can't. I have a flight from Bangkok.
Well, we don't have time today. You have to stay here.
(starting to sob)
Oh, yes, maybe, we can go and get him. So- what do you want of him? Money? We can also make this procedure where we take away the bad spirits.
He is the bad spirit. This is ridiculous. And no, I don't want money, I don't care. I want him to be punished. I want him to never ever do that again.
So we get him
We talked to him. He says, he thought you were easy.
He surely didn't think I was easy, when I yelled at him and pushed him and cried, did he?
Well, he thought that. He admits to everything, but because he thought you were willing. He apologizes. You have to talk to him, so he can apologize in person.
I don't want to. I am not accepting the apology.
You have to speak to him.
I do not want to. And i will never accept his apologies.
Ok, so we have to ask you to come outside.

Outside. Chorus of 40 or so Asian men, lounging around the police station, in the grass. I am a bad soap actress.
I am sorry.
I don't care.
I am sorry. I never did this before. I am sorry.
I heard other stories. I heard you attacked other girls.
That wasn't me, it was someone else. It was my first time. I was drunk.
I don't care.
Are you accepting my apologies?
No
What are we supposed to do then?
Why do I have to tell you? Why don't you know that? Why do I have to decide that? I can't.
You have to. You can ask for money. 300 000 kip.
That's ridiculous. That money is nothing for him. And it won't even hurt him.
Then you have stay here and go to Luang Prabang for a trial. We can get him into jail for 1 ½ years. You have to stay 10 days at least.
I am not staying.
So- what are we supposed to do?
I don't know. Why should I decide.
You have to.
I can't.
You have to.
I can't. I can't. I can't
because I just want to run away. It doesn't matter. He doesn't matter. Nothing matters. I dont want to be here. I don't want to see him. Not now. Not ever. I want to walk away and never look back.

I am now on the ground, in that corner, crying and nobody approaches me. Nobody knows what to do with me.
-You don't just walk around and fuck Laos guys.
What. WHAT?
I am falling.
I am falling.
I am tearing apart.
-So you take the money.
-Yes.

TRIAL.and now look closely: here's the magic conjuring trick.
So we are here to try these criminal offences.
HIM for trying to rape me.
His cousin for having consensual sex with me, a foreigner.
Me for having consensual sex with a Laos guy.
What? I am accused?
Ah yes. It is criminal to have sex as a foreigner with someone from Laos.
HIM: You don't just go around and have sex with Laos guys
So you don't just have sex. It's a different culture. It's not good.
Ok, I get it.
It's the law here, it's different. You don't just have sex. Maybe you marry and then you have sex.
I GET it.
You don't just have sex with anyone.
I get it.
Sign here.
No, I am not signing and incriminating myself. I am dropping the charges.
Petting on their shoulders. Happy faces. General exhilaration.
And I have lost my face. If I were a Samurai I would stick a sword in my belly. I have lost my face. And my dignity. And my humanity
because I have sex
and because I have sex, anyone can try and force me to have sex with them and go unpunished.
And CURTAIN.